This is a sad story, and a true one.
How could something so right go so wrong? Because life sucks, that’s why! I remembered a line from the movie Big Fish, which goes something like this “They say, when you meet the love of your life, time stops, and that’s true.” This is what happened to me on that day in June nearly two years ago. That was the day I found the love of my life. She was a beauty like no other. How do you put the love of your life into words? You can’t… All I could imagine was holding her and whispering to her. How would she sound? How would she feel if I held her? She filled a void in my life I never knew existed. I could never imagine ever being without her. I didn’t believe in love at first sight until that day, and I doubt I would be able to believe in it again. I must not continue; it is too painful. She is gone now. I had to get rid of her. I had no choice.
“Be careful what you wish for, because you might just get it” that was the line which sums up this heartbreaking chapter in my life. How could something so right go so wrong? I don’t know. I didn’t see the warning signs, and I didn’t want to. The relationship became intolerable and the even the sight of her terrified me. When she called I would panic. When I didn’t answer she would appear to be screaming for attention, my attention. She demanded my attention in public and in private, in the day and at ungodly hours at night, and that was all she cared about, that was the reason for her existence. My life was not my life anymore, it belonged to her and I resented that. I took her everywhere and it was only out of guilt and habit, and yes, mostly the fear. But she was addictive, a very bad addiction. She is gone now. I had to get rid of her. I had no choice. I am happy now. I wanted my life back. I feel no guilt. My life belongs to me.
Who is “she“? Can you guess?